tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18744068411570111682024-03-14T09:06:00.691-07:00My Messy HonestyHollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-78338823259979391542016-06-15T20:00:00.000-07:002016-06-15T20:00:24.071-07:00If You Can't Say Something Nice... Shut Your F*cking MouthSo much is going on in our world right now.<br />
Bad things - because that is all the media reports.<br />
I'm sure there are thousands of AMAZING things going on... but that type of news doesn't pay.<br />
The shooting in Orlando.<br />
The shooting at the Kenyan University.<br />
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A child at Disney World, that was dragged into the water by a alligator.<br />
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I can't imagine any of these situations.<br />
I can't imagine how anyone involved must have felt.<br />
Must still be feeling.<br />
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Besides the act themselves, the comments break my heart.<br />
"Well, they were at a gay night club, who cares?"<br />
"It's Africa, they always have violence."<br />
"Where were the parents during this attack from an alligator. They obviously should have been watching closer because most people on a Disney vacation think of alligators attacking, outside of the Peter Pan area."<br />
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Yes... it makes COMPLETE sense to blame the people the violence happened to.<br />
Oh, I'm sorry, you were at a gay night club with your loved one? (boy/boy, girl/girl, boy/girl) From what I have seen all sexualities were at this club, celebrating, dancing, having a regular fucking night out! Yet.... they are at fault because they were there. <br />
Because none of them had a gun to shoot back.<br />
Completely their fault.<br />
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I go to school.<br />
I go to class.<br />
I am preparing myself for the future.<br />
However, I was not prepared for someone to come kill over 100 people on my campus!<br />
My bad. <br />
I totally should have known that would happen.<br />
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Disney vaca. <br />
Saved for a year, picked the perfect place.<br />
So happy, playing.<br />
Slides, people, open water....<br />
A fucking alligator.<br />
Who in their right or left mind would have EVER thought about an alligator coming and grabbing their child?<br />
It's not even a thought in most parents minds.<br />
Especially at a resort. (as I understand it was, but could be proven wrong).<br />
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But yes people behind the computer,<br />
lets blame the parents, the guns, the school.<br />
Lets comment on how you would have done everything SOOOO differently.<br />
Talk shit about all these people, their life choices, their love choices, their vacation choices.<br />
Do it all behind the comment section on a computer.<br />
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Or man the fuck up and say it to one of their faces.<br />
You have NO idea.<br />
You will never have the WHOLE story, because that is not what the media provides.<br />
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I hope you never have to go through anything so horrible.<br />
Yet, at the same time, I'd love to see how you handle the situations and the aftermath of comments from strangers in the comments sections of the news story.<br />
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Empathy.... Empathy.<br />
Not blame.<br />
Empathy for the people going through these situations.<br />
It's sad that the 'greatest' country in the world.... has NO empathy.<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-59631377263583440192016-05-27T20:16:00.000-07:002016-05-27T20:16:21.707-07:00It's Messy.... and It's Honest.January of <u>2015</u>.....<br />
Jerry and I had been married for less than a year. <br />
I'd been off birth control for 4-5 months.<br />
The first pregnancy test I ever took in my life was positive.<br />
I was in shock.<br />
I told Jerry and he kissed my tummy.<br />
We were happy.<br />
Doctor appointment showed I was only about 5 weeks along.<br />
Set another appointment for when I'd be about 9 weeks along.<br />
I was so tired.<br />
I had to take a nap every day.<br />
I felt hung-over; I wasn't throwing up... so that was a plus.<br />
But the tummy problems, the blah feeling; I had all of that.<br />
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We went to the OBGYN at our 9 week appointment.<br />
I was excited to hear the heart beat.<br />
I couldn't wait.<br />
I knew it would make it real.<br />
I'd told CLOSE family and very FEW friends that I was expecting.<br />
I was talking to my tummy.<br />
I was loving this baby, that wasn't even the size of a lima bean yet.<br />
I couldn't wait to hear that heart beat.<br />
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Jerry sat there; I laid there.<br />
Slimy stuff on my tummy as the ultrasound took place.<br />
The tool was moved around on tummy and the technician said "Lets try internal".<br />
I grabbed Jerry's hand.<br />
I knew.<br />
Tears fell from my eyes.<br />
Our baby had no heartbeat.<br />
The internal ultrasound showed a lot of things.<br />
One of those things was that our baby, by measurement's was 6 weeks and 2 days when it stopped growing.<br />
So at our 9 week appointment our baby had been dead for almost 3 weeks.<br />
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At first I didn't feel anything.<br />
I went home, told my job I couldn't come in that night, but I'd be in the next day.<br />
Jerry told them he'd be in late.<br />
We laid in bed and cried together.<br />
But I was fine. <br />
I was perfectly fine.<br />
I told him to go to work, we were supposed to have them all over for a holiday party that night.<br />
Jerry went to work.... lasted about an hour.<br />
Told them he needed to be home with his wife.<br />
He came home and laid with me.<br />
I contacted the job... told them, <em>I won't be in tomorrow either.</em><br />
They were wonderful.<br />
They told me not to worry.<br />
<br />
I was scheduled for a D and C... <br />
<a href="http://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/dilation-and-curettage/basics/definition/prc-20013836">Dilation and curettage</a>...<br />
Or as our wonderful insurance papers showed. ABORTION.<br />
Every time we got a bill..... ABORTION.<br />
I didn't want this. <br />
I would have done anything to avoid this. <br />
Believe me.... I figured I did something wrong to have to go through this.<br />
But I didn't need insurance papers to note it as an ABORTION.<br />
My baby had died.<br />
My baby died, before I EVER got to hold it.<br />
Before I ever got to know him.<br />
I was positive it was a boy.<br />
God.... Jerry would have raised an amazing boy.<br />
<br />
The thing about being early in a pregnancy, not many people know.<br />
So we didn't have to tell many people about there being no heartbeat.<br />
I told my mom.<br />
She told my sisters.<br />
They never asked how I was feeling.<br />
I get that.<br />
It's not something you just start talking about...<br />
"So..... how are you doing since you were having a baby and now you're not?"<br />
<br />
I mean shit, <br />
I didn't talk to anyone about it, which is probably why, a year and a half later, I'm still in pain.<br />
I was ashamed.<br />
<br />
We are no longer trying.<br />
We are not going to have a baby. (So quit fucking asking.)<br />
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The thing that sucks is as I write this... I <em><u><strong>don't </strong></u></em>want attention from this.<br />
I don't want people to feel bad for me.<br />
The thing is... this happens ALL THE TIME.<br />
And NO ONE thinks they should talk about it.<br />
I mean, it's not good dinner conversation.<br />
"Hey Holly, how's your life?"<br />
"Oh it's great... I lost a baby.... you might consider it just a 'fetus'... but it was my baby."<br />
"Um, ok.... so last night I went to a concert."<br />
No one wants to talk about the fact that I lost a baby.<br />
I just need people to know.<br />
I need them to know that I've had DARK days.<br />
I've gone over in my head of all the things I must have done to cause the death of my child.<br />
.... A week after my D and C... my body still didn't know there was not a baby in me.<br />
I was still exhausted and had cravings.<br />
That is the worst punishment ever.<br />
My poor body.<br />
My body still thought it was going to have a baby.<br />
My mind was the only thing that knew it wasn't happening.<br />
<br />
Over a year later and I still feel like a failure.<br />
I'm a woman that will never have her own baby.<br />
I will never give birth to a child.<br />
Crazy... but there are plenty of woman who never have children.<br />
Yet part of me thinks I should be more upset about never having my own child.<br />
I have a beautiful step-daughter.<br />
I hug her, and truthfully.... she's enough.<br />
She is the most honest, caring, beautiful 8 year old ever.<br />
I would do anything for her.<br />
My God... I love that child.<br />
She'll never understand how much.<br />
She is the only baby I will ever have.<br />
My lord she makes me mad when she rolls her eyes at me.<br />
I wouldn't trade her for the world.<br />
We had told her we were having a baby.<br />
The pictures of her reaction was amazing... she was so excited.<br />
<br />
When we had to tell her we lost the baby, she looked at her dad.<br />
She looked at me.<br />
She jumped on my lap.<br />
She cried with me.<br />
She cried to her 2nd grade teacher; and her teacher held her. ( I love that teacher BTW).<br />
<br />
It's something people don't talk about.<br />
I think it's because people don't know how to react.<br />
I don't need someone to relate.<br />
I don't need anyone to understand.<br />
I.Just.Need.People.To.Know.<br />
<br />
I'm tired of feeling that I'm an outsider.<br />
I'm tired of feeling like if I talk about this it will make others uncomfortable.<br />
I'm fucking uncomfortable.<br />
I lost my baby.<br />
I'm fucking horribly uncomfortable in my own life.<br />
The guilt.<br />
The thoughts of what would be.<br />
I carry enough of the 'uncomfortable' side of it; just talk to me.<br />
Just be ok with me.<br />
Just know that I know... I know PAIN.<br />
And anyone who hasn't had a miscarriage... I hope you NEVER do.<br />
I wouldn't wish it on ANYONE.<br />
EVER.<br />
It is so painful....<br />
<br />
I just needed to write this.<br />
I just needed this to be out there.<br />
I just needed people to know when they ask a person.. "Oh.... when are you going to have kids?"<br />
... You never know what that person has endured. <br />
Infertility.<br />
Miscarriage.<br />
<br />
Think before you ask that question.<br />
Just know everyone is dealing with their own nightmares.<br />
I've been dealing with mine for over a year, and I need to get back to being a wife.<br />
To being a step-mom.<br />
To being a friend.<br />
<br />
I will never forget the baby I was going to have.<br />
But it's time to let the baby go, and it's time for me to forgive myself.<br />
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I will forever love the child I never had.<br />
That baby existed and it's time everyone knew that.<br />
It's time for me to no longer be ashamed that I miscarried.<br />
<br />
I take a deep breath.<br />
I'm ok.<br />
I'll be ok.<br />
I just needed to put this out there.<br />
I needed people to know.<br />
<br />
Jerry and I had a child.<br />
Our child died.<br />
It doesn't matter that it was 6 weeks.<br />
It was ours.<br />
It was loved.<br />
It was so loved.<br />
It existed.<br />
I hold that baby in my heart and I always will.<br />
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So now you know what my tattoo is about....<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-41737020217905634182016-01-18T16:02:00.001-08:002016-01-18T16:02:45.396-08:00He's AmazingMy husband, he is amazing.<br />
He has a very important roll at Nationwide.<br />
He is a father.<br />
He is my husband.<br />
He takes his personal time to pursue a 'acting career'... :) <br />
<br />
On the 23rd, he has his opening night of "Caucus: The Musical"....<br />
He's playing a Presidential Candidate.<br />
It's advertised on the big screen outside of the Civic Center.<br />
This is a big deal people....a big deal.<br />
<br />
He comes home from a stressful job.<br />
He eats dinner and checks on me and Mary.<br />
He heads to rehearsal.<br />
6 days a week for the last few weeks.<br />
<br />
I'm so proud of him.<br />
It takes a confident person to enter the world of entertainment.<br />
He takes it very seriously, but has so much fun.<br />
In August he did The Soldiers Play. <br />
It was amazing.<br />
He did sooooo awesome.<br />
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Now he's doing Caucus, and even though completely different then the last play he did, he's enjoying all of it.<br />
Mary and I miss him.<br />
It's hard when he is gone so much, but I know when we see him on stage, singing, dancing, enjoying all of it, it's totally worth it. <br />
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My husband is amazing.<br />
I am continually proud of him, admire him and have his back.<br />
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I hope everyone takes the opportunity to go see the play.<br />
It's going to be awesome!<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-2209425808566314562016-01-10T11:50:00.001-08:002016-01-10T11:50:49.768-08:00Guest Post from Jerry Jr - My Trip with Dad<div style="text-align: center;">
My Trip with Dad</div>
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By Jerry Brantley, Jr.</div>
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Sometimes you think you are doing something to help someone. Sometimes you think you are called <br />
upon because people need you. I feel that way often. My wife needs me, my daughter needs me. I am there to help my friends when they call, I will be there for family, etc. <br />
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Today I took my dad to Iowa City to visit with Medical specialist to discuss how they are going to treat his cancer because I thought he needed me. He had called me a couple of days ago asking if I was busy Thursday morning and to tell me his wife could not take him and wondered if I would go. I told him let me check my schedule and I would call him back. Now you may be thinking what kind of asshole tells their dad that they have to check their schedule, but I am that kind of asshole. I honor my commitments, and I wanted to make sure that I hadn’t agreed to do something in that time frame. My word is my bond! I got home looked at my calendar saw it was open, and called Dad immediately and said I will be there. <br />
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Last night before leaving I had a bad feeling, I kept thinking there is something I don’t know, something Dad is not telling me, he doesn’t usually ask for stuff like this. I am wondering if he wants to use the 2 hour drive to tell me something. I wonder if there is something that he knows that doctors are going to say that he needs me to hear first hand. I told my wife this and she said, well make sure to go and ask a lot of questions and hopefully you will get answers. <br />
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We left at 6:00 am this morning, and made the drive from Des Moines to Iowa City. The drive was <br />
smooth, not a lot of traffic and Dad and I talked the whole way. About Sports, about life, and he also for the first time let me in on the things he goes through battling his cancer. It has given him lesions on his skin, that itch terribly, to the point where he has to take sleeping medicine (that doesn’t work) to get to sleep through the night without itching. He still wakes up itching, and also the skin growths fill up with puss, that will leak on to his pillow or hand, so he sleeps with a rag in is hand so that he is not leaving puss everywhere. He also has these lesions in his ears and can’t reach them, there other more gruesome things I will leave out. I wouldn’t describe my dad as vain at all but he has always taken pride in his appearance. So much so that two years ago when I showed up to his house at 33 yrs of age, and I had on brown wingtip shoes that were scuffed I got a 30 min lecture, and spent the next 20 mins shining my shoes. To this day I now don’t wear my wingtips outside to avoid scuffing them. One of the things about his disease that affects him the most is the fact that he doesn’t like what he sees in the mirror. It’s easy to tell someone that you don’t care about how they look, that you love them and just want them to be healthy, but in saying that we forget about the person actually suffering. I had said that before to my dad, and I apologized on our ride up. Not because he was upset, or even pointing out that it bothered him, but because as I reflected on it and put myself in his shoes, I would get tired of people saying Jerry we don’t care about how you look we just love you. I would be thinking the whole time well that’s nice but I F&*CK*&G CARE ABOUT HOW I LOOK!!!<br />
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We got to the hospital and started walking into the Cancer Center. This as I said earlier is the first time Dad had asked me to come along, so it is the first time I got to make this walk. I will tell you when I saw the words “Cancer Center” a wave of emotions went through me. I felt my stomach drop like I was on tip of a roller coaster that was heading downwards. I wanted to tear up, but I fought it back. Brantley men are tough, and I was there for my dad.<br />
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We got to the office and were called in. A very helpful nurse came in and took information. She gave him a gown and asked him to change. When she left he asked me not to be too grossed out from the things all over his body. I thought you are my Dad you could have a second head growing out of your belly button and I will still love you.<br />
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Later a Resident of the facility came in. She said she had read the chart but asked dad the main reason he was here today. This as you may understand irked him a bit. He has been suffering with this rare form of cancer for years. He has seen many doctors and had been misdiagnosed with Eczema, Psoriasis, and MRSA infections. Finally when nothing was helping he went to an ER Dr. who sent him to Iowa City where they finally figured out it was a cancer - Mycosis Fungoides Lymphoma. This is a very rare disease which is why it was not diagnosed properly. So he has had many trips to Iowa City, has had pictures taken, biopsies taken, been poked and prodded and whatever you could imagine. So when the young resident asked why he was here today, he grew a little agitated. He explained a story that I could tell he has told time and time again, and ended by saying, “I am here because I want to get some answers on treatment, I am a little tired of being poked and prodded and not hearing anything.” She assured that when we left today they would prescribe a treatment. She was going to go talk with the other doctors, a skin specialist and a Hodgkin’s Lymphoma specialist, to put the game plan together. <br />
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At this point my dad and I both relaxed. The two doctors came in later accompanied by the resident. The first doctor had my dad go through his story again, to be thorough and make sure they understood the full picture. Dad told the story less agitated this time because he knew that something was going to come out of this. I can’t imagine how painful his wait has been to get a treatment. The doctor explained the reason it took so long is because they had to get all the facts, and really look at the puzzle to make sure they fully understood what Dad has and the best way to go about. How severe it was, what “flavor” of cancer it was (which was his fun way of saying what are the cells doing and attacking), which dad asked “So do you think strawberry or watermelon!!” and ultimately the best way to fight it. The second doctor had not said anything really but his foot had not stopped tapping the whole time he had been in there. So the first doctor turned it over to the second who was the specialist with Lymphoma. His first words were “since reading your charts and now seeing you I have been chomping at the bit to get to you. I can tell you are in pain and I am confident that we can treat this and control it. It is not curable, but it is controllable. There is something comforting about a doctor that’s excited to get you taken care of; who realizes that you are suffering and wants to help. I also appreciated the word “controllable” in that sentence because to me that meant it was not life threatening. <br />
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Since I heard my father had cancer, and the doctors thought it could have spread in his body, I had been consumed with the thought of losing my father. How I would make sure my little brother and sister were ok, what would I need to do to take care of family, basically writing his eulogy in my head. I know if he goes I am the patriarch of the family, and that is a duty I don’t take lightly.<br />
It had been on my mind so much, that without knowing I think it closed me off a little to family and <br />
friends. I cried the day I heard about it, but then really didn’t want too afterwards. I didn’t talk about it a whole lot because that made it more real. One of my best friends even called me out saying “you haven’t said boo about your dad since you told me he had cancer.” I simply said I wasn’t ready to talk about it. I even found myself down a little at Christmas, I thought it had something to do with not feeling like I gave my wife and daughter enough this year, but now I know that was not it. I couldn’t fully enjoy the holiday not knowing what my dad’s fate was.<br />
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My dad was prescribed a pill form of Chemo; that will hopefully help. I say hopefully because being a specialist he let us know that the treatments prescribed may or may not work on different patients, and they have no way of knowing until they try. “We will try X and it doesn’t work we will try Y, if Y doesn’t work we will try Z, but we will figure it out.” My dad and I were both excited about the prospect of him getting this treated. We thanked the Drs. and were on our way. In the car ride home we stopped at the diner, we talked more sports, Dad shared stories about watching me play football in high school and college, and how proud it made him. We talked about marriages plural as we have both been married multiple times, and we talked about leadership and life lessons. He said one of the things he appreciates about me is that I am a consummate professional, I need things scheduled, which is why he was never mad when I told him I would check my schedule…”you have <br />
always been that way. When you were a kid you were never late, you always did what you said you <br />
would. I have always appreciated that about you.” <br />
He also told me something that hit me like a 100 lb weight. Truth be told I had been worried Dad had <br />
not been as aggressive as I would like getting answers, I told him before I left Christmas night, that if he didn’t have answers by Jan 4th, I was taking him to the Mayo Clinic in MN. I am not defiant or <br />
authoritative with my dad. He is and has always been my hero. But this time he said he could tell I was serious and he wasn’t going to fight me. So during our drive home he told me “son thank you for driving me today. I knew this would be a good trip for both of us. I hear how serious you were at Christmas and I wanted you to meet the doctors and see the people working with me, and know that I am getting good care, and I knew if you heard it yourself from them it would make you worry less, which would help me worry less". WOW! My dad fighting cancer, going through stuff that as he described he would rather have four hip surgeries then go through, wanted me to take him not because he needed it, but because I needed it. <br />
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Again I was rushed with emotions, but I didn’t tear up… Brantley men are tough. <br />
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Our ride home was great, Dad and I had not spent this much time together in a long time. I dropped <br />
him off he thanked me again, and this time I thanked him. He walked into his house I backed out of the driveway, and I cried. I cried for 25 damn minutes on my way home, I am crying as I type this right now. At first I thought why am I crying, and smiling at the same time? Well sooner or later the emotion you hold in makes it way out. It has been knocking at the door for a couple months now, and finally I let it out. Happy tears, because my dad is ok, tears because I am in awe of a man going through cancer who has enough love for his son to bring him on this trip to help him see. Sad tears because I know I haven’t been the Husband, or father that I could because my mind was preoccupied. I blamed it on being busy, work, life etc.… but really it was because I just hadn’t been happy.<br />
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So I thank my Dad. Thank you for asking me on this trip, thank you for knowing your son. You will never have to fight this alone, I will always have your back, and I hope to mean to my child or children what you do to me. He said to me that as men grow older we grow in wisdom. We look at things differently. I can honestly say, I took a trip today, which changed me forever.<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-44356810933983514312015-12-30T07:23:00.000-08:002015-12-30T07:23:23.066-08:005 YearsIt's been five years since I've heard your laugh.<br />
I think that is the hardest part.<br />
That laugh was... original. <br />
Entertaining.<br />
Infectious.<br />
It wasn't a sound I thought about until it was gone.<br />
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5 years is a long time.<br />
Lots of things change.<br />
Life goes on.<br />
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However, I do not think a day passes where I don't have at least a moment that I think about you.<br />
It may be brief, just a slight flutter in my brain.<br />
Or a whole car ride home by myself.<br />
I have come to the conclusion that you will never leave my mind.<br />
I used to try and force you out.<br />
Mad at myself when you entered.<br />
Then I realized, ignoring those thoughts, was just a try at controlling an uncontrollable situation.<br />
Grief.<br />
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It's been five years and I believe I'm past the stages of grief.<br />
Denial.<br />
Anger.<br />
Bargaining.<br />
Depression.<br />
Acceptance.<br />
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Denial: When you first died, I was sure it was some kind of practical joke.<br />
You'd show up any minute at the bar and say something stupid like "YAHTZEE!"<br />
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Anger: WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING!!!??? This one hit hard. I was already mad/disappointed you hadn't come to my 30th birthday party. You died when I was mad. Goes to show, you never know what might happen, never hold on to anger.<br />
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Bargaining: I begged you... BEGGED you to show up in my dreams. I said I would move on. I'd do good things, I'd be a better person... I just NEEDED to see you. I am not a religious person.... but I know I attempted to make deals (bargins) with God to just have you back....<br />
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Depression: I suffer this bitch anyway... but it was deep. I changed. I cancelled plans. I drank constantly. I disappeared into the grief and didn't want to come out. In the grief I was closer to you. <br />
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Acceptance: I know you are gone. I know I won't see you. I know you will always be apart of me though, because in your own fucked up way, you taught me so much about myself during the 7-8 years we were friends, roommates.<br />
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So here I am... 5 years later, remembering VIVIDLY the phone call telling me you had died.<br />
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I know....<br />
I will never listen to certain songs again. (Dirt Road Anthem, Over You...)<br />
I will never enjoy Southern Iowa, 4-wheeling or dive bars like I used to.<br />
I will always miss you, that smile and that laugh.<br />
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I miss you and I always will.<br />
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<br />Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-59446018814820504452015-12-24T14:11:00.000-08:002015-12-24T14:11:17.900-08:00Merry Christmas Eve!It's cold.<br />
It snowed.<br />
The ground is covered in white.<br />
The PERFECT Christmas Eve.<br />
Sitting in the living room with my husband and my dogs.<br />
Mary is with her mom on Christmas Eve....<br />
<br />
My Christmas gift from my parents is in the basement.<br />
A treadmill they gave us money for a few months ago.<br />
I bought on Craigslist, it's pretty nice actually.<br />
I've used it... a few times... since August.<br />
<br />
My gift from Jerry is on my finger.<br />
He took a ring of my Grandma's and had it reset for me.<br />
It's an opal. <br />
It.Is.Beautiful.<br />
I held back tears when he gave it to me.<br />
It is a birthday and Christmas present.<br />
So we sit here on Christmas Eve, looking at the presents under our tree.<br />
There is not a lot.<br />
Mary got a few things from Dad and Holly, some expensive, some not.<br />
Jerry has a few gifts from me, but his main gift is a new smoker/grill, which we do not have yet.<br />
As I said, my gift is on my finger.<br />
I love it<br />
I love it.<br />
I LOVE MY RING!<br />
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We look at our tree, with very few presents under it, thinking we should have bought more.<br />
But...<br />
There is thought.<br />
There is love.<br />
There is need/want in those gifts.<br />
Even though the tree is not as full as we are accustomed to; it has gifts under it.<br />
Some people don't even have that.<br />
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I know as kids we got a lot of toys and things, probably more than what my parents should have gotten us.<br />
But it seems to be the universal symbol, that a Christmas tree is not REALLY a Christmas tree unless the gifts are PILED up beneath it.<br />
The 3 gifts I remember most are:<br />
1. Red Rider Wagon (metal, not that plastic shit. Still have till this day.)<br />
2. Chris Mutt (holiday animal Target had every year. Still have till this day.)<br />
3. Mr. Cart.... a cart with three 'levels' that I pushed around the house (and still have till this day.)<br />
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But I don't remember much else when it comes to gifts.<br />
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I remember the scents, the people, the warmth.<br />
F--- the gifts.<br />
Give me those memories, the family together, the good food, the happiness that comes with the holidays. <br />
I rather have a tree that is bare of gifts, then a house with no family.<br />
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Can I get an Amen? <br />
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Merry the Eve of Christmas.<br />
And please know, that the lack of gifts, never has to mean a lack of love.<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-54181336870240020552015-09-21T19:44:00.002-07:002015-09-21T19:44:24.516-07:00F#ck CancerI got an email from a good friend today that an old co-worker of mine passed away last night.<br />
I hadn't seen him in a few years.<br />
Hadn't seen him since he was diagnosed with cancer.<br />
My friend is obviously upset, as this guy was pretty awesome.<br />
He was a dad, husband, friend and one of those co-workers that was always smiling.<br />
I didn't know him well.<br />
But I know he will be greatly missed by everyone that knew him.<br />
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A old friend and co-worker was diagnosed with colon cancer years back.<br />
She is having to have surgery again to remove some questionable looking spots. (from what I understand)<br />
As she wrote on FB "Going to be a little more tricky than the first time as he will have scar tissue to work with and because my organs have been previously operated and disturbed. He says he'll ultrasound the entire liver to make sure he got everything."<br />
She is the mother of two, married to a great guy and an all around good person.<br />
We aren't close, but I care for her.<br />
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A friend I worked with in my early 20's (who I haven't seen in years)...her teenage daughter is battling cancer.<br />
This is her FB post from earlier: "Without a successful surgery, Kenzy's life expectancy goes from below 20% to 0%. This is the ugly truth about Osteo when there is recurrence. We are not looking at statistics cause Kenzy proved all the doctors wrong last time."<br />
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W.T.F?<br />
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This all came across my email/social media today.<br />
I can't even imagine what ANY of these situations would feel like.<br />
All I know is I am hoping and thinking of those that are fighting and those that have been left behind.<br />
I know it's set me back emotionally - thinking of all these wonderful people.<br />
Makes one think.<br />
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style="height: 204px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: -5px; margin-top: 0px; width: 204px;" />Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-4021750851099902992015-09-20T18:15:00.001-07:002015-09-20T18:15:53.037-07:00There Is No Place I Rather Be... (LAMBEAU!!)My aunts and uncles (and a couple cousins) are at Lambeau as I type this blog.<br />
They are watching the greatest team ever: The Green Bay Packers.<br />
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In November my Grandpa passed away.<br />
It was a little expected....<br />
But it's never easy.<br />
My Grandpa was a very intelligent man.<br />
Loved his beer.<br />
Loved his Packers.<br />
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He would always give us a dollar and walk us to the corner store when we visited in Texas.<br />
We would buy candy cigarettes.<br />
It wasn't frowned upon then... and they were yummy.<br />
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My mom and dad, her brothers and sisters, with their significant others (and a couple cousins), are at the game tonight to say "Goodbye", to my Grandpa.<br />
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I know he's happy that his kids are gathered together, in Green Bay, cheering on the Packers.<br />
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I hope the Packers take the win.<br />
But if they don't... I still know the power behind the Frederick family, the memory of my Grandpa and the night game at Lambeau is one that my family at the game will remember and cherish forever.<br />
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I know, sitting on my couch in Iowa, that I will always remember it also.<br />
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I love you, family.<br />
I love the Packers.<br />
Lets do this! GO PACK GO!<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-70518681502021228762015-09-11T16:08:00.000-07:002015-09-11T16:08:01.427-07:00A Few Random ThingsTo start out, I love my new job.<br />
I notice so many things about kids.<br />
How they act.<br />
Behave.<br />
Tell tall tales... constantly.<br />
And pick their noses...constantly<br />
I never thought I was a patient person, but I have proven myself wrong.<br />
One of my students calls me Mrs. Crazy (or Mrs. Cray Cray - and it's just between us). <br />
She thinks I'm so funny, silly and, well, crazy.<br />
Which I like, because she still respects me, we have fun with her school work and we still follow all the rules.<br />
Today I didn't feel the best and when taking her to the bus she looks at me and says,<br />
"I know you said you don't feel good today, but I hope Mrs. Crazy is back on Monday, ok?"<br />
And she left me with a big smile.<br />
I'm making an impact.<br />
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I'm teaching Mary about the important things in life.<br />
<a href="http://www.needtobreathe.com/">Need To Breathe</a>, my favorite band. <br />
We listen to it in the car and she likes most of the songs, sings a long to a lot of them.<br />
It makes me happy.<br />
We have started watching the first Harry Potter movie - and she is actually into it!<br />
Loves all the magic, the mystery, the what if's...<br />
I love that she likes it.<br />
There are actually a lot of great life lessons in Harry Potter... besides just learning how to ride a broom and play quidditch.<br />
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She watched Captain America 2 and The Avengers... she thought Avengers was a little boring.<br />
I am slowly, but surely converting her to a nerd.<br />
And I'm SOOOO proud. <br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-44139746574400181392015-08-28T14:53:00.001-07:002015-08-28T14:53:26.428-07:00First Few Days of SchoolI started a new job this week helping 5.6 hours a day at Mary's elementary school.<br />
I'm a Special Education Associate.<br />
I help kids, one on one, or in the classroom, through out the day.<br />
I am enjoying it. <br />
My days go fast.<br />
I get to help kids that need it.<br />
And I'm surrounded by awesome people.<br />
I won't get in to the in's and out's of what I do or who I help, but getting a smile or a thumbs up from one of my students is all the reward I need.<br />
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I noticed something on the first day of school that I thought was kind of comical. <br />
You probably would notice it also if you looked at all the first day of school pictures.<br />
Girls get dressed up in nice clothes, probably new, hair bows and fancy shoes.<br />
Boys are in athletic shorts and Nike shirts.<br />
Granted, they might be new, but it's so casual.<br />
There was one GQ boy with a button up shirt under a nice sweater - but he was the only one.<br />
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Here is an example of what the boys look like the first day of school (image is not mine, I do not know these kids.)<br />
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Here are the girls: (again not my picture... not my kids)<br />
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*I'm not exaggerating...<br />
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It's also interesting to see how kids behave with each other. <br />
I'm learning a lot and I really hope I do well at this position.<br />
It's challenging.<br />
It will be rewarding.<br />
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* I might be SLIGHTLY exaggerating.Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-38154665833425578982015-08-20T10:50:00.001-07:002015-08-20T10:50:30.584-07:00The Belt - UpdateAs I said in a previous post, The Belt challenge got off to a good start.....then a weekend happened.<br />
I sprained my ankle.<br />
Mary was in the hospital.<br />
I ate McDonalds.<br />
It was gross.... <br />
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Anywho...<br />
We were able to find a really good deal on a treadmill and my dad helped me picked it up, with my ankle 'brace' on, and we put it in our basement.<br />
I turn on a show, walk at an incline, at about a 3.5 pace.<br />
I want to go faster, but need to be careful with the ankle; I would like to wear heels in the next few weeks and can't do that if the ankle is acting up.<br />
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I'm still paying attention to what I eat, and I notice a SMALL difference in how my pants are fitting.<br />
I'm not going to lie.<br />
The weekends kill me.<br />
We go out to eat.<br />
We drink.<br />
If I could manage a 5 day a week good eating, walking on the treadmill, habit, I know I would start to see a difference, so that is my goal.<br />
Baby steps to a healthier life style.<br />
Baby steps on the treadmill due to my ankle.<br />
Baby steps to buying that new belt I desperately need....<br />
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And what I see/read on facebook is everyone's husband is pretty amazing.<br />
I'm glad that is what most of my friends have.<br />
There are also friends that I see that NEVER mention their husbands.<br />
For whatever reason, that is what the choose to not post.<br />
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I, however, will brag about my husband until I'm unfriended by everyone.<br />
Why?<br />
Because he is amazing.<br />
In November my husband let me quit my corporate job.<br />
I got a part time job at my beautiful friends salon.<br />
I made a lot less money. <br />
I worked a lot less hours.<br />
I got in a funk....<br />
My husband however continued to climb up in his company and received a promotion that he longed for.<br />
He worked for.<br />
He deserves.<br />
<br />
My husband....<br />
He makes mistakes at times or gets overly passionate about things...<br />
But in my eyes, he is perfect.....<br />
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He spent the last month and a half, 6 days a week, away from me.<br />
Away from Mary.<br />
To be in a play.<br />
Not just any play.<br />
A play about black men in the military.<br />
About what they have had to make happen for themselves.<br />
How hard they had to work to even be included in FIGHTING for the country that they wanted to fight for....<br />
It's a beautiful, yet sad, and at the same time, so completely relevant in todays society, piece of work.<br />
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My husband....<br />
He is brave.<br />
Strong.<br />
Loving.<br />
Caring.<br />
Devoted and loyal.<br />
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He plays a character in this play that even his mom said "that is not the man I raised"....<br />
He plays his character to a T. <br />
You love him.<br />
But you hate him.<br />
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I have had friends and family show their support of Jerry in this play.<br />
My Monthly Brunchly is going tomorrow.<br />
My dear friend that I used to work with is going on Wednesday.<br />
My family's going this weekend. <br />
A group of us are going to the final show.<br />
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We are surrounded by loving, caring, supportive family and friends.<br />
There are not enough words for me to explain how proud I am to have such an amazing man as my husband.<br />
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If you have not made it yet, or purchased your tickets yet, you should.<br />
<a href="http://www.asoldiersplay.com/">http://www.asoldiersplay.com/</a><br />
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<br />Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-27425540520089368642015-08-11T16:46:00.001-07:002015-08-11T16:59:00.202-07:00The Belt = 0; The Curb = 1; The Hospital = 2 nightsOhhhh what a long strange trip it's been....<br />
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Last week... my first week of The Belt 'challenge', I did fairly well. I was more mindful of what I ate and I went walking around the neighborhood. Nothing crazy, but more than I had been doing, but still, I should have done more. <br />
On Saturday I went to Ankeny Unplugged, an all day concert in Ankeny (duh), with my friend Niki.<br />
It was a nice setting, not busy at all..., ok music for the most part, but what was really good was the conversation. <br />
We got there about 12:30ish... we left about 5:30ish.<br />
When we left we walked to Firetrucker, a near by brewery where we had a free drink ticket.<br />
At one point I attempted to turn in my flip flops, on a curb..... ankle bent one way, leg stayed straight.<br />
O.M.G. I have never sprained anything in my life, but mother f***** it hurt like a b****.<br />
I am a trooper though...I mean Niki and I made it to the brewery for our free drink (11% beer that tastes like a Moscow mule, served in a Moscow Mule cup).<br />
I was in a bit of pain, but not horrible... the night went on and all was well.<br />
(The Belt = 0, The Curb = 1)<br />
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Mary's 8th birthday party was on Sunday evening at a near by park.<br />
My ankle hurt, but I was set and ready for Mary's birthday party.<br />
Thing was she didn't feel the greatest, had a slight fever and didn't want any food.<br />
She wanted to lay around.<br />
Anyone that knows Mary knows that her laying around is not something that happens.<br />
We moved her party to her mom's house so she would be out of the heat and near a place she could rest if she needed to and she was fine for some of it.<br />
Then... not so fine. <br />
She threw up.<br />
The party ended after most people ate pizza and cake and she did have enough energy to open some presents.<br />
I went home to ice my ankle, Jerry went to play practice and Mary was with her mom and step-dad, still not feeling well.<br />
About an hour later Amanda (Mary's mom) called and said she was throwing up and was running a temp of 103. "We are taking her to the ER, do you want to come?"<br />
"Yes!"<br />
They came and got me and we went to the ER....<br />
Time went by, tests were run, IV's, meds.... etc.<br />
Jerry came up after play practice (keep in mind he is the greatest dad ever and I told him to stay at the play as she was doing fine and we were totally going to be going home soon).<br />
THEN....she was admitted to the hospital.<br />
She was so sick.<br />
Mary has a VERY HIGH pain tolerance.<br />
This girl is bruised.<br />
Jumps off things constantly.<br />
Falls off things constantly.<br />
Get's up and does it all again.<br />
It takes A LOT to cause her REAL pain.<br />
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She was not her.</div>
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Mary is spunky and always on the go.</div>
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She's witty and wonderful and challenging (for me).</div>
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She's my daughter... my baby.</div>
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And there were a couple of times, sitting next to her when she was calling out in pain, that her mom and I were close to tears, if not crying, because we couldn't do anything to help.</div>
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She is the only child I have and she is my baby, even if she didn't come from me....</div>
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Jerry, and I were there.</div>
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Mary's mom Amanda and stepdad Marcus were there.</div>
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Most of the time the 4 of us were in the room.</div>
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Certain times nurses and doctors asked about the family dynamic since us 4 were there and we get along.</div>
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They were surprised, all of them, that we were ex's and steps.</div>
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That we got along so well.</div>
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At first we thought it was kind of comical. </div>
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Thought we'd say one was the mom, one was the grandma.</div>
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Thought we'd say one of the guys was Mormon and had sister wives.</div>
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We.Were.Abnormal.</div>
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No one understood we were ex's and steps... because we all get along so well.</div>
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It's sad that WE are abnormal.</div>
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That the fact that we put the child's happiness before hurt feelings or bad breakups.</div>
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I have gone out with my husbands ex wife for a beer.</div>
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We talk about our daughter.</div>
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His ex has always been good to me.</div>
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Welcomed me.</div>
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We have always put Mary's happiness ahead of petty differences and we always will.</div>
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We may not look at things the same, may not have the same household or be anything a like, but we have an (almost) 8 year old that we want to have a happy, healthy childhood.</div>
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Mary was at the hospital Sunday night till Tuesday afternoon.<br />
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Drugs, antibiotics, she eventually started to feel better.</div>
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She even helped the nurse take her IV thingy out... (yes that is the technical term). </div>
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Mary = Amazing</div>
Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-32753109256570557752015-08-05T09:32:00.000-07:002015-08-05T09:33:35.505-07:00White Person!!Got your attention, didn't I?<br />
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I can't remember how long it's been that I have said "White Person!" when waiting to cross a road.<br />
I stand there, looking around, big orange numbers counting down, a big orange hand motioning STOP and then... it happens!<br />
"White person!!"<br />
It's time to walk across the street.<br />
I did this once with Jerry by my side and he said "What are you saying that for?"<br />
I kinda laughed and said, while pointing at the 'white person walking' symbol, that we could now walk across the street.<br />
In his joking way... he said "That's racist."<br />
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The other day while leaving the Downtown Farmers market and waiting for the light to change.... <br />
"White person!" and we walked across the street.<br />
Jerry and I got in to a conversation, jokingly of course, about how racist this sign is.<br />
I mean the hand telling us to stop is orange, but the person telling us to walk is white.<br />
Wouldn't it actually make more sense for the hand to be RED and the person to be GREEN?<br />
(You know...red stop... green go....)<br />
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It's just amazing how discrimination really is every where.<br />
Even on pedestrian cross walk signs.<br />
*sigh*<br />
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I found this picture and feel sorry for anyone that is not in love... you can't cross this street.<br />
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Only if you frolic can you cross this street....<br />
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If you like the movie Big... you can cross this street...<br />
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Yes.. this guy is GREEN... but I think he's chugging a beer.<br />
So only if you are drunk can you cross this street.<br />
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Are you old?<br />
Do you need a cane or another old person to lean on?<br />
You may cross now.<br />
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My point is... I have no point.<br />
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It was first used in Cleveland, OH.</div>
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The first pedestrian light was erected in 1868... but dates back more then 2000 years.****</div>
<br />Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-25381390126989719252015-08-03T10:55:00.003-07:002015-08-03T10:55:52.810-07:00Walk This WaySo in my effort to lose weight, I decided to go on a walk.<br />
I was going to go to the Y, but decided to just walk outside around the neighborhood.<br />
So I started out, music in my ears, and about 5 minutes in, I was hot and wanted to turn around.<br />
But thought to myself;<br />
"Self.... keep going. You love nature and being outside. Don't look at it as a work out, look at it as walking and seeing and being in nature." <br />
So I kept up my pace, but took the time to look around.<br />
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A pretty fountain.<br />
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I was hot, sweaty, my heart rate was raised.<br />
I got a nice work out in, with out thinking about the work out.<br />
I can't wait to do it again tomorrow.<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-42267497628816082492015-08-02T09:15:00.000-07:002015-08-02T09:15:59.019-07:00The BeltSo.<br />
I've talked about how I've let myself go.<br />
Well I'm tired of being tired.<br />
I'm tired of having excuse after excuse.<br />
I'm tired of acting like this was done to me.<br />
I have done this to myself.<br />
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Here is a picture of my belt. <br />
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I have had this for MANY years, you can tell by how it's falling apart....<br />
I've worn it on the smallest hole and a couple times on the biggest.<br />
You can tell where it was worn the most.<br />
I was comfortable there.<br />
I fit in my clothes there.<br />
I like it there.<br />
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I don't care about what the scale says.<br />
I'm not going to get on it.<br />
I'm going to figure my weight loss, my getting in shape, with my belt.<br />
Every notch back to my most worn placement on the belt.<br />
AND at that time...besides looking better and feeling better.<br />
I'll buy myself a new belt.Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-5920997311998518552015-07-28T07:30:00.000-07:002015-07-28T07:30:35.981-07:00The Seven Deadly Sins - #4 Envy<h1>
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<span class="main-fl"><em>noun</em></span> <span class="hw-syllables">en<span class="middot">·</span>vy</span> <span class="pr">\<span class="unicode">ˈ</span>en-vē\</span></div>
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<span class="pr">: the feeling of wanting to have what someone else has<br />
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Envy... now that's a good deadly sin.</div>
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How many of us have looked at someone and thought - wow... they have everything I want.</div>
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That is envy.</div>
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How many time have us woman been in line at a grocery store, looked at the cover of a magazine and regardless of who is on it thought, wow, I wish I could be them.</div>
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They are tall, skinny, pretty, rich.</div>
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Granted, their lives are probably just as messed up as the rest of us.</div>
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I've looked at friends and envied them.</div>
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How they have no fear.</div>
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How they take charge and don't worry what people think of them.</div>
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I envy my sisters for having children and remaining skinny.</div>
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I envy my husband for knowing who he is and never straying from his beliefs.</div>
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For having the courage to try something new and to go after what he wants.</div>
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I envy people that quit their corporate jobs to chase their dreams, whatever they may be.</div>
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I envy people that don't stress and worry and just DO.</div>
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I envy people that have never dealt with depression and have no idea how it feels.</div>
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I envy people that have never lost a love one unexpectedly.</div>
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I envy people that don't even try to have kids and pop them out like it's their job.</div>
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As much as I may feel envy, I wouldn't change my life.</div>
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I know behind all those things I envy, are problems and life stories, just like me.</div>
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As much as some people look like they have it all together... they don't.</div>
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Everyone envy's people from time to time... and then you may learn the truth.</div>
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I had some married friends, who I thought were the best couples, I wanted that. </div>
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I envied them.</div>
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Those married friends aren't together anymore.</div>
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It woke me up.</div>
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Don't envy what you don't understand.</div>
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There is ALWAYS more to a person, a story, a situation, a behavior then what you see.</div>
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I'm going to work on not being so envious.</div>
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I think we all should.</div>
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-74707769101813878982015-07-23T18:48:00.000-07:002015-07-23T18:48:12.457-07:00I Will NeverThere are certain situations that arise that I think " I will never be that. I will never do that." <br />
And the people around me speak loud enough and that is what they are saying also.<br />
"You will never be that. You will never do that."<br />
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For a long time, people thought it was so uncharacteristic of me to go four-wheeling and being 'dirty'. <br />
I love four-wheeling.<br />
I love dusty gravel roads.<br />
I love dirty hair and clothes that lead to small town bars and small town lives.<br />
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I will never be a size 2 again.<br />
I would have to starve myself... <br />
Just 4 and a half years ago I did fit into my size 6 high school jeans.<br />
It was amazing.<br />
It was obtainable.<br />
It seems so far away.<br />
In 11th grade I weighed 117 pounds at 5'10".<br />
I was kinda sickly looking.<br />
My ribs showed through.<br />
I didn't eat much.<br />
I thought my stomach was big.<br />
I was so skinny.<br />
It was not ok.<br />
Not attractive.<br />
Yet... I felt beautiful.<br />
Because of the number on the scale.<br />
I felt worthy.<br />
Why is it that the size that we wear is what brings us happiness?<br />
I hate that I've let myself go.<br />
But just like the posts on The Seven Deadly Sins, I.Am.Just.Lazy.<br />
I want to be everything my husband wants.<br />
Everything he deserves, and he deserves more than a lazy house wife that piles on the pounds.<br />
I will never be 117 pounds again.<br />
I will not fit comfortably in my high school jeans.<br />
But I can take care of myself.<br />
I can work out for exercise, not necessarily to be the most tiny girl.<br />
I can try to be healthy.<br />
My husband loves me.<br />
Tells me I'm beautiful.<br />
I just no longer feel it about myself.<br />
So I need to change that.<br />
I need to get out of my head.<br />
I need to realize that I may not be what I was...<br />
But I can be so much better.<br />
Be Happy.<br />
Be Healthy.<br />
Be Me.<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-19694792679627991362015-07-21T08:43:00.000-07:002015-07-21T08:43:15.557-07:00The Seven Deadly Sins #3 - Greed<h1>
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<strong>:</strong> a selfish and excessive desire for more of something (as money) than is needed <br />
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Greed. <br />
Greedy.<br />
I don't think this word has ever been used to describe me.<br />
I don't believe I am a greedy person at all.<br />
I don't have a desire to 'keep up with the Jones'.<br />
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I don't really hang around greedy people either.<br />
Everyone I know is giving, for the most part.<br />
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I would think where my greed lies is with 'time'.<br />
I want my time with my husband, just him and I.<br />
If we go a long time with out hanging out together, just the two of us, we miss each other.<br />
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I am greedy with family time.<br />
It's actually something Jerry and I talked about in pre-marriage counseling.<br />
I had to talk about how I don't want to miss anything my parents and sisters are doing.<br />
Packer Sundays, dinners, random gathering, holidays... it's VERY hard for me to give up any time with my family, so that could be looked at as greedy.<br />
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I was probably greedy when I was younger... but I don't recall.....<br />
Do you think you are greedy over certain things?<br />
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<br />Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-37418483906206527022015-07-17T07:25:00.000-07:002015-07-17T07:25:40.346-07:00Dear BrendanWhat up dork?<br />
It's been awhile, huh?<br />
Lots has happened here while you've been gone.<br />
I got married... did you know that? <br />
It might have taken some getting used to, cause you never liked anyone I dated, but you would like him. <br />
He has a 7... almost 8 year old daughter.<br />
Can you imagine that... me a step-mom? <br />
It's crazy.<br />
Sometimes I have a hard time with it.<br />
Sometimes I'm more immature than her.... but I try.<br />
I think she likes me.<br />
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It's been a long time since you've been in my life.<br />
It was really hard when you first left.<br />
I cried a lot.<br />
Sometimes when I was alone I would cry for long periods of time.<br />
Spider pig aka Rocky was worried about me.<br />
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I catch myself thinking about you.... mostly when I am driving somewhere.<br />
So many things we did together as friends.<br />
So many things we experienced as roommates.<br />
So many things I wish you were still around to see.<br />
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The thing about time.... <br />
The thing about life....<br />
Is that things change.<br />
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I will always think of you.<br />
I will always be sad that I never see you anymore.<br />
But I will always be ok because of my friends.<br />
My family.<br />
My husband.<br />
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Brendan. <br />
You were so YOU. <br />
And I loved that.<br />
And I miss you.<br />
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I hope you are looking down on Jerry and me and you are happy for us.<br />
I heart him.<br />
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I miss you and always will.<br />
Happy birthday, my far away friend.<br />
Happy birthday.<br />
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Love, <br />
Holly Marie Brantley<br />
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-24811046695064708852015-07-13T16:57:00.000-07:002015-07-16T09:55:46.547-07:00The Seven Deadly Sins - #2 Sloth<h1>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: white;">: the quality or state of being lazy</span><br />
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: a type of animal that lives in trees in South and Central America and that moves very slowly</div>
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I think it would be fun to write about the animal sloth... or even Sloth from the Goonies, but instead I'm writing about being lazy.</div>
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I'm lazy.</div>
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I know I'm lazy.</div>
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If someone tried to insult me and said "Geesh Holly, you are so lazy!"</div>
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I would say... "Yup. Duh!!"</div>
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I currently weigh more than I have ever weighed.</div>
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I work a part time job. </div>
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I sit on my a$$ most days watching ION television.</div>
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Back to back episodes of Criminal Minds, Blue Bloods and Ghost Whisperer. </div>
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ION is almost as bad as Netflix.</div>
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I have a membership to the Y and for awhile was going 5-6 times a week.</div>
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Then I stopped. </div>
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For no reason really.</div>
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I'm just freaking lazy.</div>
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If I was in the movie Seven with Brad Pitt, I would for sure be the person that was killed for being a sloth. </div>
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Even over gluttony.</div>
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I am not proud of it, but at the same time, it just is.</div>
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I know if I lost some weight, started feeling more in shape I wouldn't be AS lazy, but I have always been a couch sitter, television watching, kind of person.</div>
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I like going out and doing things.</div>
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Traveling.</div>
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But I LOVE being home.</div>
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I need to get that work out/get in shape bug again.</div>
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When I do get it... I do pretty well at losing weight and getting in shape.</div>
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It's just a mind over matter type of thing and right now... my mind is all sloth-like.</div>
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What are your main motivations to get you off the couch?</div>
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What do you do to not become lazy?</div>
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I just can't seem to get my mental focus on losing weight/getting back in shape.... and I don't know what to do.</div>
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So I will sit on the couch, with ION playing in the back ground and go to bed at 9.</div>
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Maybe I'll be motivated tomorrow.</div>
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Maybe not.</div>
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-25291117103822146802015-07-12T19:13:00.000-07:002015-07-12T19:13:06.627-07:00I Might Make You VomitI went to dinner with my beautiful husband tonight and as he was looking down at his phone at our schedules the next few weeks.<br />
I thought to myself.<br />
He is so gorgeous.<br />
Those dark eyes.<br />
That charming smile.<br />
His wonderful conversational skills.<br />
We talked about some 'projects' he has going.<br />
We talked about time with and without Mary.<br />
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We had a couple beers.<br />
Shared an appetizer.<br />
Ate our food.<br />
And talked.<br />
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People from time to time have said they can't just sit and talk to their significant other. <br />
That they don't have enough to talk about.<br />
They say they can't travel with just their person... <br />
They need to travel with a group of people.<br />
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Jerry and I love our time together. <br />
We always find things to talk about.<br />
I love traveling... which has made Jerry love traveling.<br />
With or without friends and family.<br />
We always love it.<br />
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I'm lucky to find someone that loves just chilling and talking like I do.<br />
I'm lucky that he enjoys discovering new things with me.<br />
I love that he loves spoiling me.<br />
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In the next month or two, you will all discover another side of him.<br />
I'm proud of him.<br />
I'm in awe of him.<br />
I can't believe I'm lucky enough to be the woman by his side.<br />
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You may now vomit over our love and awesomeness. :)<br />
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When we first boarded the cruise ship last week, they directed us to the lido deck for drinks and food.</div>
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Everyone took HUGE plates full of food.</div>
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More than some people eat in a day.</div>
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One day I had eggs benedict and macaroni and cheese.... FOR BREAKFAST!!</div>
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It's free!!</div>
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No.. really it's not... it's in the cost of your freaking cruise...</div>
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But since you don't actually have to PAY at the time... it <em>seems</em> free.</div>
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For no reason besides the food was THERE.</div>
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It was the most 'gluttoness' thing I have ever seen or been apart of.</div>
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(According to my sources 'gluttoness' is not a word, but I'm using it.)</div>
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I actually see how people that barely get any food in a day could hate me.</div>
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I ate and wasted enough food in 4 days to feed a 'normal' person for 3 weeks.</div>
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**Next time you think you are 'starving' or 'so full'.... be thankful you don't actually know what starving feels like and be ashamed that you ate enough to be 'so full'.</div>
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Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-63219826376766132932015-07-07T18:57:00.002-07:002015-07-07T18:57:56.015-07:00All in the Family CruiseMy beautiful little family flew down to Miami on July 1st, to then take off on our cruise on July 2nd. <br />
We went with Jerry's moms side of the family.<br />
It was fun!<br />
We were in Miami for a day and checked out Bayside that a friend had recommended. <br />
We ate at Bubba Gump Shrimp Company - or as Troy called it, Bubba Shrimps.<br />
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Service stunk, food was decent. <br />
We then walked around and enjoyed the HOT Miami weather.<br />
Mary was lucky and got some Haggen Dawgs (spelling is completely wrong.. I know).<br />
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On Thursday we took to the cruise ship and set sail for Key West.<br />
In Key West, after a very long and hot tempered walk, we went to a restaurant that friends had recommened called La Te Da.<br />
It was good!! We told Mary to wipe her hands off and she said she couldn't because she didn't have a napkin.<br />
We told her the white cloth was her napkin.<br />
She was surprised!<br />
She then told us she didn't want to stain the white napkin. :-)<br />
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The next day we went to Cozumel and surprised Mary with an early birthday present of swimming with the dolphins, Jerry and I did it too!<br />
She was SOOO excited and it was SOOOO amazing!!<br />
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The ship had all sorts of activities, Jerry and Deb both got medals for singing and dancing on stage during the Motown sing along.<br />
Jerry was told to do his sexiest dance... Mary was so embarrassed! :)<br />
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They had a huge 4th of July party on the deck! <br />
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They played the Women's World Cup Game in one of the bars, and that was awesome to watch in a large group of people!<br />
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We had so much fun with his family, and I have about 400 more pictures, but figured this was a good summary. :-)<br />
Thank you Lewis family for the great family trip!<br />
Love to you all!Hollyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798311819241635082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874406841157011168.post-67315164972159231042015-06-24T18:21:00.000-07:002015-06-24T18:21:00.267-07:00Best. Jobs. EverI have the best jobs ever.<br />
I work part time at a salon and spa as a receptionist.<br />
I get to greet people when they come in, answer phones, schedule appointments and clean.<br />
And. I. Love. It.<br />
I work with GREAT women.<br />
Everyone there is a friend.<br />
The owner and manager have been amazing.<br />
They were truly SAINTS when I needed them most during a hard time.<br />
I don't think they know/understand how much that stuck in my mind.<br />
The ladies are funny, outgoing, honest and most of all... help me with my hair. :)<br />
I do not have stress, but I have responsibility, it's PERFECT.<br />
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My second part time job, I just started at a doggie day care, lodging and training center.<br />
It. Is. Awesome.<br />
I get to greet people and their dogs, make them feel welcome and comfortable leaving their dogs with us. <br />
I try to always have a sunny disposition... how can I not? <br />
I get to see all kinds of dogs - all day long!<br />
I'm just getting to know the people there, but we've had a few laughs and I think they know I'm silly, but responsible.... I hope they know that.<br />
We were speaking with random accents today for no reason.... :)<br />
Today we had a 3 month old Shih Tzu sit on our work desk all day and we got to pet her, and cuddle her and it was PERFECT.<br />
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I love my two jobs.<br />
I love the area of customer service I have found myself in.<br />
Greet, smile, happy, loving, caring and honest... it's working well for me.<br />
LOVE IT.<br />
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